4/12/11

so ive been playing around with a ouija board, and seeing what i can do with it. im excited. its fun. and it works. legit. i wanna have an OBE but idk if it will work. guess we'll see.

so the more that i think about it, the more i miss kevin stephens every day. he was my life, my everything. and then it was over. it all happened so fast i didnt know what to do. and now he seems happy, and i cant stand it. i hate his gf. every bit of her. i love him to death, and would do anything for him. ANYTHING. if he were about to be killed i would jump in front of him. like kevin was my first true love, and i hope we are brought back together at some point soon. i would die if that happened. i would be super happy. anytime i think of him, i smile. and i can hear him saying, "Emily, i love you. you know you are gonna be mine forever... right?" and it makes me wanna cry.. cause he was the best thing to ever happen to me. i wish i knew what i know now, back when we were together. i think life would be so much easier. i could re-do somethings i wish i didnt do, and things i wish i did do. but i cant do that.

night.